Hey everyone, long time no see?
Obviously, I haven't exactly been active
on this site recently. I deeply apologize for this, I care about you all a lot, and I don't even know how many of you even still know
me. You all deserve an explanation for my frequent long hiatuses.
If I'm being honest, drawing isn't exactly my passion anymore. I get frustrated half the time I do it, and I feel silly posting inadequate art. I see many young artists who are so
much better than me, and it kind of rains down me a bit. I've also really feel detached from the Sonic Fandom. I don't even have any recent gaming consoles to play the new games. The newest console I have is the Xbox 360...
My real passion is film. I love taping and editing masterpieces. In this field, I feel accomplished, I feel motivated, and most importantly, I feel inspired. I have my own YouTube channel, and I'm doing fairly adequate on it...about 5,000 views total, not bad, not bad at all.
Also, I literally have no time. I have just returned back to my home country after a month long, much needed, vacation to South Africa. I pursued my film desire there, and you can see my video on YouTube if you wish!
Continuing on with time issues, I am starting my final year of secondary (high) school this week. I am going to be focused on applying for universities, well if I'm being honest, I already am.
Why have I been inactive all summer long you ask? It's because I have been doing summer studies. Schooling never ends for me. I only just completed my psychology course work yesterday...
I also have been struggling with my anxiety recently. I feel so pressured by this site sometimes because I feel like I'm letting you guys down by taking so many breaks. Honestly, I wish I didn't have anxiety, I wish I didn't have panic attacks, and I wish that I didn't stutter and shake all the bloody damn time. It's a terrible feeling, and I wish I didn't have to deal with it. I wish I didn't get bullied and ugh! Okay, enough venting, that's not why I am here.
I really really really REALLY hope you guys understand and can all forgive me for my absence. I really do try to find time to sit here and talk and what not, but it's really difficult with all the different things going on the other side of my computer screen. Just to confirm, no, I AM NOT LEAVING.
I just need you guys to understand that this year is a big year for me, and all of my focus needs to be put on my studies for my last year of high school this year and my first year of university next year. Thank you to all those who still care and have not forgotten me. c:
I'm sorry for the depressing journal, but I didn't want to beat around the bush.
Thank you for all of your love and adoration, I love you. MissOreoCookie